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From David Jhules Maceda- Virtual Assistant Head of MY Virtual Support Outsourcing Business

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continuation from Chatbox...

I think that you are perfectly aware of the difference between a private-owned company between a school organization, right? So, why the hell were you telling stuff off about the company when in fact it was clearly stated, as far as i am concerned, during the orientation that anything that might transpire in the company must remain within the company. As an agent, back then, you were not to divulge any information outside the company for the mere fact that the company has certain rules and guidelines to be followed; any violations or any harsh reactions to certain matters must be dealt with the appropriate people. ngayon, sino ang bobo? sino ang mukhang walang pinag-aralan? sino ang dapat bumalik sa grade 1? are you aware that you are liable to be sued for libel for what you have done? although your issue with the company was not exposed to the public, except the The NORSUnian, still, you have divulge confidential matters of which you were not supposed to expose to them?

Regarding your articles, of which i can relate to you stating that you are an aspiring PALANCA AWARDEE, c'mon? do you really think you can make it that far, not to mention having attitude problems and all that? Lisa, as you may have known her for being our--then--VIRTUAL ASSISTANT, ADMIN ASSISTANT, ACTING--NOW, OFFICIAL--EDITOR IN CHIEF, AND WRITER is the Cum Laude of her batch, with now, holding the degree of BACHELOR IN MASS COMMUNICATION does not even have what it takes to be a PALANCA AWARDEE--of which even I, Myself dont aspire because of the mere fact that I know what my Capabilities are and I know where I stand with the skills that I have with me in writing. Please, there must be really something wrong with you. If you want, we can accompany you to Dr. Yasi's office if you want; I think he can help you with your problems, whatever they may be.

With regards to your performance here in the office, My explanation can wait until the right time comes that i can somehow find time to pay a visit to OUR LOVELY OFFICE. thought you should know, I was part of TN before; I was the first who brought the name of the THE NORSUnian and of NORSU as well in this company thus, those who came after me somewhat became a stereotyped image of what NORSU students are. whatever the employee's opinions here in the office might be with regards to those people like you would bounce back to me, given that I was the FIRST EVER NORSUnian writer in this company. So, I think you have the idea of how upset and frustrated I am with how you have acted because clearly, from all the ranting that did, it boomeranged to me because of the fact that we came from the same school, the company had to pull me back down on becoming a trainee because of you of which i think, personally, i didnt deserve; basing from the caliber of writing that we both have, having read your articles and all, i can say i come off a step or two ahead of you.

I am sick and tired of hearing all these rumors about you spreading bullshit around without us knowing; thanks to Bea of course, we found out about it and to tell you honestly, we are all filled with angst towards you right now. Being the only NORSUnian here in the office, I am obliged to talk to you since none of them does not want to see the likeness of you; thus, to end this here for the mean time, I am daring you.

PREPARE ALL THE FUCKING GUTS THAT YOU HAVE GOT AND GIVE ME THE BEST SHOT THAT YOU CAN EVER GIVE ME BECAUSE ONE THING IS FOR CERTAIN, I AM GOING TO TEAR YOU APART, IF ITS THE LAST THING THAT I AM GOING TO DO. YOU DONT HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT I CAN BECOME WHEN I AM REALLY UPSET--of which some of the people in the office are aware of.

God Bless you Always.

Unang Pasabog....

Next taym nalang kita papatayin… Humanda ka… Salamat nga pala sa promotion… Huwag kang mangialam sa buhay ng may buhay…- Mr. Ryan Gantalao
I would like to apologize if I kept a piece of luv note (we called it in TN, a simple way of writing your own thoughts… everything that you want to say. You can even use pseudonyms or leave it UNKNOWN) anyway, I DO not have any grudges to react on what he said. Luv notes is merely an opinionated thought of writing and I am gladly respected that.
I have only three reasons why do I have to say something on this note. Honestly, It is getting worst and I am really disappointed and mad. I have only three words with this guy, INSENSITIVE, CHILDISH and worst… exasperating.
My first reason is I do not know what his attitude problem is. Maybe he lacks guidance from his parents and he does not know what the meaning of respect is. Maybe my “pagubot” attitude forced him to underestimate my capabilities especially in MYVS. FIY, Ryan is one of the resigned yet TERNMINATED agents in that office. He filed a resignation letter, I do not know if he made a resignation letter and I do not see it in my desk.
The main gist was, and I think the main reason why he acted like moron, I texted him that he ought to see me because of important matters about MYVS. He replied that he will be leaving in Manjuyod that time for I knew and the Former HR knew that he was strolling in Dumaguete. I texted him ….
“unsa ka presidente? Naa kay Rangko?”
I was really shocked with his libelous texts which some of my friends knew. Even the chiefexecutive officer knew what he texted against the company and in my part.
Honestly… things were not alright. If you were going to ask my opinion, it was only part of my job that I have to contact him for settlement issues and concerns with regards on his PAY and his pending worst articles. It was just the HR who wanted to text him for clarifications.
“ Palibhasa, hindi mo alam ang pagkakaiba ng trabaho sa gagu-gaguhang laro. Sa bagay, hindi mo naman alam ang promotion na nakuha ko sa opisina. Hindi ko rin alam kung dapat ka bang mainggit dahil sa simula’t sapul na nagtrabaho ako sa kompanyang pinag-aksayan mo ng pawis at dugo… ay hindi… pinag-akasayahan mo ng panahong kakaFACEBOOK at pagUNDERTIME, masyado mo ng ikinondena ang abilidad ko. Dapat mong malaman na iba ang mundo sa eskwelahan at TRABAHO. Dapat mong malaman na hindi sa lahat ng panahon, dapat mong pairalin ang pagiging hudas at inggitero. Kung akala mo lang na hindi ako tatagal sa kompanyang ito… dalawang buwan kong minahal ang trabaho ko na dapat sana, ginawa mo”
Second, some of the TN staffers knew that I will not speak for the certain issues on the outside world most especially if I am in the premises of TN office. I am sensitive about that. But the fact is, he is the one who opens the door of disgrace, humiliation and unethical actions in his part.
“ Alam mo na hindi na ako nagsasalita at isa kang masangsang na hangin sa pananaw ko. Alam mo na may natitira pa akong respeto sa iyo at alam ko na hindi ka marunong tumanaw ng respeto sa iba. Marami akong saksi. At kung masayado kang nahuhumaling sa pagkakalat mo na isa isa kang magaling na manunulat, huwag mong antayin na ipakalat ko lahat ng articles mo sa opisina na REJECTED at ang pinagmamalaki mong E-BOOK na masyadong malaswa at walang Code of Etihics. Palibhasa, hindi mo alam ang Ethics sa pagsusulat dahil hindi ka Masscom. “
“sadyang lumaki na ulo mo. Hindi ko alam at hindi ko na dapat malaman pa kung napakanormal na sa iyong sistema ang ganitong pag-uugali o epekto ng TN kaya ka nagkaganyan. Marunong akong lumugar sa mga bagay na dapat kong sabihin at gawin. Alam ko ang kinalalagyan ko at sana, alam mo rin kung saan ka lulugar”
“kung gamitan nalang ng kapangyarihan ang gusto mong ipalabas, mahigit isang taon ka pa lang sa TN. Ni minsan, hindi ko man lang nakita ang sincerity mo sa TN office. Hindi mo nga naransan mag-overnight. Masyado kang pa-importante pag may events at gusto mo, lagi kang napapansin o normal lang talaga na PAPANSIN ka. Kung may pagkain sa TN o may libre, masyadong makapal ang mukha mo at di ka matutong mahiya at mas malala ka pa sa PATAY GUTOM na salita”
“ Hindi na nga ako nagsasalita sa mga atrasong binigay mo sa kompanyang binuwisit mo lang… at sa totoo lang, mas binigyan mo pa ako ng problema. Kung hindi lang dahil sa trabaho, malamang, wala tayong problema kahit ibang tao na lang ang may malaking problema sayo. Pasensiya na pero tinuturing ko lang trabaho ang lahat ng pakikitungo ko sayo kahit sa TN office. Ni minsan, hindi kita tinuring na kaibigan o malapit sa buhay ko. Lahat ng TN staffers ay importante para sa akin at ikaw lang ang bukod tanging hindi ko tinrato ng ganoon. Masyado ka kasing papansin at walang hiya. Gahaman ka at mapanghusga. Lahat nalang ng bagay ginagawa mong kumplikado.”
And my third and valid reason, I consider my friends to leave harsh comments (they knew it is not too argumentable) unlike your comments. Your notes are too vulgar and annoying. I more deserve to block you as my friends. But sad to say, you first block me out. You even blocked my blogger account. How thick is your face. Threatened? Well, I do not have to deal with this issue because I am not like you. My mom raised me with values and ETHICS. I do not know if your mom or dad teaches you the right way. What the shit I care if your parents are separated and you make it as an excuse why are you like that! Well… better inject some valium my dear… maybe you already experienced restlessness.
NGAYON NIYO SABIHIN SA’KIN NA MALI AKO… NA AKO PA ANG LUMALABAS NA KOTRABIDA SA BUHAY NIYA. SA TOTOO LANG, HINDI LANG AKO ANG MAY GALIT KAY RYAN. MARAMI KAMI!
ALAM KO NA HINDI NIYA MABABASA ANG POST NA ITO. WALA AKONG MAGAGAWA. KAYA NGA NAIMBENTO ANG BLOG PARA KAHIT PAPAANO, MAIBSAN ANG GALIT AT HINAING NG ISANG TAO. WALA AKONG PAKIALAM KUNG MAG-MENTION MAN AKO NG NAMES. WEALA AKONG PAKIALAM KUNG MAGKAKAROON NG MALAKING HIDWAAN SA AMING DALAWA. ALAM KO NA MAS EDUKADO AKONG TAO KAYSA SA KANYA.

Misjudged

Honestly, I sleep at least 2 hours… and it was our break! Too bad… it was just only a nap… I might say, A POWER NAP!

I was not in a mood to write articles today. Maybe I was too stressed or maybe I was so excited with the Bohol Escapade this week end and I hope “madayon siya”.

I was so happy with the pictorials we had last week end. It was a successful one. I was really amazed with the pictures, make-up and costumes… even though there were flaws… hehe! If I am dealing with the so called pressure… spare on me, it involves physical and psychological pressure…

Some issues brought up. Some people were having revenge. Some were in deep pain and others were alarmed that it was really a wrong timing. I do not know how to fix these. I just have to let it pass and heal all the wounds of yesterday. I was really happy after the shoot. But seeing my colleagues being jaded with the so called issues, it alarmed me to deal with their sympathy.

Why is it that some people are often misjudged? How do you react on criticisms? Why do we have to feel the insanity of the other people?

Questions raised in my head. Me too, I do not know the exact answer. It is vague. It takes time for you to resolve these issues. I want to pat their backs…but there is something that blocks me to do it. I do not know why…

I know it is harsh. It is too painful. Issues became worst because of selfishness and inconsiderate. Some people are too judgmental. They do not think what the real score is. They want to judge and criticize people with all their means.

All we have to do is… things will be fine soon. Time may heal the wounds…but not now.

annoyance!

It’s started out as an attitude problem…
What’s the essence why people wanted to feel melodramatic schemes just to feel the sympathy towards people around them? What is your stand to those people who are too desperate and a looser because of their so called foolish acts? I do not want to blame these people… some are born to be like these.
I know that I have been so melodramatic… a drama queen as they say… and now I realize that it’s not right to act like a sick-little-puppy-dog attitudes. It is too annoying too make things too hard for you to recover and you want to be an emo wannabe…. You have to do "self pity" stories because you crave for comfort. You have to be a protagonist and the rest of the people you want to act as antagonists in your lives are those people you hated most. You put flowery words in your fairy tales turned nightmares to the ears of those people who listens you well….
I have been through that stage… and its one of my attitude problem. Before it will get into my nerves and be a mental problem… I stopped it until someone uses this kind of technique… It makes me feel like I am a dumbest person in the world… and it freaks me out!
I have no choice but to forgive and ignore these so called “desperate looser” people. I have no choice because I want peace of mind. These thoughts tell me that whenever you want to be a drama queen of KING… just remember that you have to clean your own sheets and enjoy seeing people who sincerely they give advises, hugs and concerns that are too disappointing to hear and behind the tears..., its rediculous and worst...untrue! That’s life... you have to deal with lots of drama but too much drama will cause you to have a mental problem…
I ought to forgive these people for I am one of them. But I will try to be mature in dealing with these crazy people because they are worst than me. I have to convince myself that these people are not annoying and desperate. It’s their choice… not mine. I have to respect it.
Bullshit!

23 years... still alive!

Time sails smoothly and days are definitely rushing into my nerves. It’s been almost a month of having myself being jaded with all of the things that I want to do and savor the hours of non stop working, thinking and constructing my life on the outside world. Pieces of thoughts brought me in… it’s been one year… my life revolves in the publication. It’s like I am in a battlefield. I have to deal with intelligent people, trying to squeeze my brains and skills. It’s like I am in the psychiatric ward. I have to deal with different people and crazy ones. I have to deal with lots of individuals who have “attitude problems” and it makes me realize that every TN staffers has their own personality disorders Haha! Forgive me but it’s true.
I do remember last year… my greatest gift that I ever received was… TN accepted me as one of their staffers and I was really happy. Honestly, Noriel was the first person who told me that I was accepted… it was May 27, 2009 when I received the so called VERDICT… it was a little drama that I didn’t knew that I was accepted and the fact remains that I was making my “nervous chuva” that time and I liked it how it feels.
Its one year ahead… again, I’m writing this post not in the TN office… I’m writing it in my own cubicle at MyVS, a little company that caters content writing jobs and costumer service representatives as well. I applied as a writer last April 10 and got hired and be an administration assistant position last May 1 and I quote what my supervisor said… WHICH IS GREAT!
I am not a good writer (may mga tao lang na nagpupumilit na magaling sila). Marvin and Junrell (my friends) can attest on that! When it comes to time management, I am always late at least two hours ( Ariane, Junrell and Marvin are my living witnesses! Hahaha!)… In other words, as of this moment, I do not understand the fact why I am chosen to be on that position. It is a reality basis and it is not a char! Based on my performance, there are some cases that I can’t reach my quota and there are times that I’m always late… I don’t know what the reasons are and I have to deal with it… as I’ve said, it is another challenge for me to cope up! It is another thing that I must admit…
Before, I used to mingle with my publication colleagues. It’s like everyday I am used with the jokes and DEATH NOTES! (sori guys… I ought to think that word as an alternative way of saying “patyanay”) well… I admit that it’s funny but not all the times… I consider it as joke!
Aside from everyday DEATH NOTES and chuva in the TN office, these people trained me well. I thought that being 69 years late will not be changed at all. I thought bingka moments are always good to hear. I thought that being stubborn and lazy will stick into my system. And I thought… talking about serious stuffs are as easy as putting flowery words like a feature writing! Which is not good! Working in the publication is not like absorbing the lessons in writing, photography and computer works. Dealing with your own attitude problems is also one thing that you have to realize. Sometimes, I have to realize my mistakes and change it with bright aspects. Sometimes, it is painful and there are people who throw stones at me because of flaws. Sometimes, I am too pissed off to those people who don’t understand me because I am a transvestite. It’s a matter of stereotyping anyway.
I have lots of flaws. I’m sorry I’m a human… an old excuse. TN helps me to accept my mistakes. TN helps me to be vulnerable and calm. TN helps me to change everything that I have to change. I’m sorry guys if I have done something wrong. Sorry if I am too harsh with my words, actions and bingka stuffs. It is really a lame excuse if I would say that it is part of my attitude, you have to deal with it.
Just a piece of thought, you have to change and learn from your mistakes. It’s really a normal thing to say but it’s really hard to do. Lessons and failures brought me in to be a “not so good” applicant in MyVS. I have to deal with employees that I should say “mas labad pa nako”. I have to discipline them and make a first move to follow all the rules and regulations in the office.
MyVS is just a mini-TN office. You have to write and you have to deal with “attitude problems” which is more gentle than in TN. You have to be prim and proper… well… it is so hard for me to do it because I AM ALWAYS MAKING PAGUBOT! Just a normal Bea that you used to know! Marvin once told me that “makatola akong personality” and it’s really really normal. I have to be strict and that’s one of my workloads. I have to follow the clock and not be a procrastinator. It’s a mature way of saying these thoughts… hey! I’m turning 23 this Friday! Haiizzzttt!
I already told myself that my life was not a mess. I have my family who are always there to support me even though I am so “pasaway” (laliman ba ka’g six years naa sa college? Masteral?), I have my night friends… bitchy ones! And on the other way around… day friends (just talking about BLD bukas loob sa diyos… Weird? Hahaha!) I have also my Burger delights buddies… and of course, gay and tumba patatas associates. Of course, I know that they will be always there for me, my another family, bhoy and the rest of the gang! And MyVS too. I also have CHAIRA and MARYA (I don’t have to spell it out!) and of course, SFA who are always here in my heart! I know that without these people, things will be more complicated , nastier and dull. What the F#$% I care if don’t have a lovelife? And What the SHIT I care if someone tell me that I am single and my life has no spice at all because I don’t have a BOYFRIEND?
I’m happy with my life right now. I am happy with all the scratches and clean sheets. I am glad that most people appreciate my talents and skills. I am so grateful that I reach another year in my life. I ought to understand every inch of my mistakes. Still life goes on… and another year will be added on my book of chuva! Haha!
To those people who will read this post… Please allow me to celebrate my special day… alone! You will not see me checking your time cards in the office, you will not see me walking on the pathways in NORSU and you will not see me hanging out in restobars and Escaño as well. You will see me sipping coffee in the Baytch! (Australian accent of beach) and relaxing my senses and body. I decided to celebrate my birthday alone… sort of soul searching! Hahaha!! Honestly I want to be free from stress! That’s all!
Well… All I can say is… HAPPY Birthday! And wish me great happiness and luck! I’m turning 23 this Friday! Hehe! Old? and stronger as ever!

updates!?

despite of my busy sked (busy ba?), I forgot that I still own my ever chuva na blog to update. I was not able to express my whole feelings on what I was doing now... coz the fact remains talaga that I was too bombarded with lots of articles that i have to accomplish everyday. I even work at least 6 days a week to finish all the quotas and stuffs in the office (time cards, time sheets, receipts, and most especially... everyday reminder, yawyaw, flang, kasaba if muabsent na wala nananghid 2 hours before the shift, pabuyag na callers, mga writers na labad), I have to do it... or else... wala na akong trabahong babalikan.

I knew that I was busy constructing my life on the outside world. Honestly, there is one thing that i really miss a lot. Dealing with my publication colleagues, my so called family inside premises of NORSU, I knew the fact that I was not able to accomplish my tasks... in short i left them hanging with my responsibility. I ought to apologize that one.

If you are going to ask my dearest classmate, a friend and also, my co-officemate, david... to the baytch! working in the world of content writing is really hard. If i will describe it, its like a bunch of jejemon words that you have to write but unfortunately, it is not allowed and you have to write words without grammatical issues IN 30 minutes... a 500 word article plus the fact that you have no idea on the keywords or topics that you you have to write (like Flapwheels and chuva). Actually, I want to sleep at least 7 hours to cure my headache. I knew that there's no easy job in these world.

I almost forgot that I have lots of tasks to make in the publication. I knew some of you might say that I was irresponsible. Yah... you are right...

The thing is... as of now, I am still adjusting. I am still coping up with all these things in my life. There is a part of me saying that I have to give up the publication. there is a part of me that mumbles not to continue my responsibilities in TN. It is really informal if I just walk away without saying my goodbyes to my co-staffers.

It takes time to adjust. As the days gone by, another year in TN might touched my life and prepare myself with lots of tasks. I have to adjust my time in school, in publication and work. kaya ko ba?

I do not know what will happen next. Give me more days to adjust and maintain my body clock as well. I am not saying that I want to quit in the publication but pls give me time to settle things out for my own good. do not worry... i will manage it...

miss you TN guys!

promoted? hahaha!!

It is a matter of hardwork and patience. I know that I deserve this but I am not prepared to handle this position because my experience is not enough.

I am not strict but it is obliged to do so. I am always late (very late) but I have to be early as much as I can. I am not an effective disciplinarian and now, it is my responsibility. I am not a good speaker but it is needed.

Maybe this will remark a new beginning in my life. To change my “tinapolan” and “bobita” attitudes. I have to be firm and I have to be responsible. I am spoiled and spoon feeded with the people around me. “What do you expect from jay-ar luyas”.

I have to accept the responsibility. I know some people will be proud of me. I am doing this because I want to learn. I have a fear but I will face it. I know I can.

I am not just a content writer. And welcome to another level! Admin assistant… here I come! Hehe!